Hang in there. This is no fun. But it gets better.
It’s not ridiculous at all. , so there’s some precedent for you.
My boyfriend really struggles with all of these and he has no clue how to fix it. He was born and raised a Christian and when we first started talking he told me he was not waiting till marriage, but then after he lost his virginity to me he decided to tell me he was in fact waiting, but felt uncomfortable telling me, he thought it would be a deal breaker. I feel terrible for my past and I am actually trying very hard to become a good Christian. I was born a Catholic and now that I have been reading the Bible more and more I have decided that I want to convert to Christianity. I thank him every day for helping me see the light but he still shames me for my past. At times he gets to the point that he wants to go out and have sex with as many people I was with to be even and in his head it will make him feel better and to him it is the only solution. Does anyone have advice?
So I guess to answer Christawna’s questions…
I need help. Just few days ago, I went into my pregnant girlfriend’s diary and I found out how she asked a guy out and they both had sex same day. How she invite guys to her house for sex. I love her so much but the though of her past is driving me crazy. Remember she is presently caring my baby. What can I do cos am about to quit the relationship.
Anyway I know Im a huge hypocrite but I just felt like sharing.
We have now been married for over 3 years and have 1 toddler and twins of 10 months. We do have a good relationship. My wife laughs, enjoys life and yet she doesn’t realize how much pain and hurt I still carry inside of me…and I don’t want to talk to her about it anymore, as it just hurts her and I don’t want to do that again.
Thanks.Its so stupid and illogical. She didnt even know me back then.
Over the last 5 years, I have read about 100 articles on this subject, I went for counselling and deliverance at my church and I have also talked to other people about this, but it feels fine for a week or so and then reality kicks in again…